So if any of you are friends of mine on Facebook, you already know I absolutely Love tattoos, and designing tattoos, and coming up with ideas for new tattoos.
Now what most of you don’t know are the meanings behind each tattoo I get or plan to get.
So. Because I’m failing horribly at posting often enough I’m going to lay everything out for you, kind of give you some background to these decisions. Not because I feel the need to explain myself but because I love sharing who I am, with anyone that is willing to listen, and to anyone that it will benefit.
My first tattoo was my most important one that I have, and will ever have.
When I was 17 I got pregnant (with my now ex). Some see it as a mistake, I see it as something that had developed the person I currently am. I never got to see, or meet my baby. Within the first four months I miscarried, mainly due to stress, and lack of taking care of myself.
Almost a year after the miscarriage I had a dream (I never ever dream) and in that dream I was able to see my baby. My baby girl. She was beautiful and the image is engraved into my brain. And yes, it brings tears to my eyes still to this day.
After that my amazing supportive mommy and I took the time to pick a birthday, and a name. I chose a name that one of my favorite sister’s and I created. Nevaeh Joy( Nevaeh meaning Heaven so she’s Heaven’s Joy). Go back and read the first name backwards if your curious about the meaning… I feel it suits perfect.
So in honor of my daughter Nevaeh I got this;
According to interpretation experts it means Live, Laugh, Love, Cherish. And the date would have been her first birthday, now I chose that date because it was an otherwise uncelebrated time. And I wanted to celebrate. Even if technically I had no reason…
Now my second tattoo also has background.
I got Selah, on my right hip. Interpretation for me meaning, stop and think about it, or meditate.
It’s a constant reminder to me. I have taken away the option of cutting. My hip used to be my ‘spot’ hidden and painful. I used to not take care of myself at all. In a really rebellious stage of life I didn’t have as much control of my life as I could have wished so I took control in ways that I could, (cutting was one, the other was not eating, I would go a few weeks at a time without actually eating something yes I’m still reaping the consequence from those 3 years) unhealthy as they were, and I would never ever recommend to any other person to use my methods. Now I’m trying to take back control, by being healthy and I will not lie it’s a huge struggle still to this day even 3 plus years later.
Wow that’s six years of time. Just made that connection.
The previous info also goes towards to what I’m getting soon except the right will be red, the left purple. Which is an Anorexia recovery symbol which I am very proud of.
The next one is going on my wrists. It’s going to say Always and Faithful. It’s a personal reminder that He is always faithful, no matter what… Some people may criticize me for this but oh well.
I’m also getting this;
Which is copying the tattoo my brother got, but what can I say he has really great taste, and I am totally in love with this design.
Lastly I’m trying to figure out something of color, I need colors on my body, not just black. So we’ll see how it goes…
Man I can’t believe I put all this on here… And I wont lie I’m kind of emotional after all this.
